I was doing so well, and then a surprise pregnancy announcement (surprise to me because I didn't realize they were trying) from my college roommate sent me over the edge today. I actually got the news in the afternoon from my other college roommate. As I was making dinner later that evening, I couldn't keep it together. I just sat down and had a good cry.
I'm happy for her, I really am. But why oh why does it have to be so hard for me? And when will it be my turn? The scarier question is -- do I even get a turn? I had to take five minutes tonight to let it all out and just feel sorry for myself. I'd been doing so well, but everyone needs a good pity party at some point, don't they?
I know the Lord has a plan for my life -- I just wish I knew what it was. But I am trusting Him, and knowing that everything will work out for the best, no matter what the outcome.